I have learned in the past month,
that I have a brain tumor
It's wrapped itself around my optic nerve
and I am having a procedure to hopefully
because the chance of blindness increases
if I choose
to do nothing..
I have always
ALWAYS told my children
that doing NOTHING
is doing something
so make sure you CHOSE to do that.
I don't believe we should just LET life happen.
I feel strongly we should EMBRACE life
really LIVE it.
I don't by ANY means think we should try to control it.
But we should by all means OWN it..
it's OUR life
a GIFT from God after all
and we only GET one of them.
we each walk roads…
they take us places…
onward to adventures,
back to home and family and friends…
sometimes we walk trails
or meandering country roads..
but life is a journey
and walk on I will
ever following after my Savior...
The procedure I am having is called a "Gamma Knife"
It is a little scary.
but there are scarier procedures..
Buddy asked if I was scared..
when I think of all the things that could happen IF I just..
just do nothing..
it's honestly a LOT scarier..
so I don't know who first said the quote..
but I like it
"You have to WANT IT more than you are AFRAID OF IT"
and that seems to fit here…
I want this treatment
because of what it CAN do
more than I am afraid of it..
I WANT the hope
MORE than I am afraid of this Tumor
I want LIFE
more than I am afraid of all its rawness
all is pain.
I Want to SEE these views again
I want to look out on the beauty of God's Creation
and give thanks
for EVERY thing
the good, the bad
because its LIFE
and LIFE can be raw
and painfully real
and in it's ruggedness
and I am thankful.
thankful for the air I breath..
the love of family and friends
and of CHRIST JESUS
saved me from the sin that is me…
I am SO thankful
and am trying to drink it all in