saying goodbye

Opa

 moments

where you are the only one in the world

where he would draw YOU in

make time to visit

to KNOW you...

quiet talks

good music

easy rhythms

silent walks

unique particularities 

snack time

meal time

joyful times

how DO we just say goodbye?

forever?

how do we let our hearts just... LET go?

enough at least to face the day?

Blessings Farm 

and our little family

were so WONDERFULLY blessed to have

OPA

in our lives

in our day to day 

Last week

Opa's grand battle with the wicked Cancer ended

and 

Opa went home to Jesus and to Oma

whilst all of heaven rejoices in Opa's arrival

while the Host of Heaven sings praises to Jesus for another soul coming to Himself

we mourn

for we  

wanted 

we hoped for..

JUST 

another day

or two

or three

or a week

or month

or 

for cryin out loud a dozen years more would have hit the spot

This weekend we buried the man who raised me up

trained me up

gave my hand in marriage to Machine Man

who rejoiced with us at the entry of each of our Blessings into this world

Yesterday

we sprinkled the earth upon his grave

and wept with loved ones

and celebrated Opa's LIFE with loved ones

i don't have enough words to speak tribute to this Man

this man God chose to be MY father here on earth

this man

who loved so richly

gave so freely

listened to intently

cared so deeply

this man

who so wonderfully paved the way for me to SEE Christ

because he exuded

patience

kindness

gentleness

self control

loyalty

faithfulness

because he was SO quick to believe good things

to not hold grudges

to forgive quickly

and not gossip... EVER

reading scriptures I was able to SEE it in my Dad

He was simply the most

 WONDERFUL Opa

father

brother

friend

EVER

he will be so missed 

in every day life

in each moment at the farm...

I confess

I am SO thankful to the Lord for this man

for his graciousness

his humor

his deep chats

love of excellence

passion for intellect

desire for simplicity

marvel at technology

I am so honored to just have even 

KNOWN him

so blown away that God CHOSE him to be 

MY daddy

the Blessings OPA..

he will be so missed

so very very deeply missed

by all of us here at blessings farm

&

by all who knew him

Opa

you are

you were 

so very very 

LOVED

till we meet again

my friend

my father

<>< 

me